i've been writing a lot and only one person has read it hopefully you will all read it one day. when i am done.

so she's coming over for a movie no big deal it's just hanging out and whatnot i will joke about something and she will bust my balls as per usual i think this is fine. and anyways she's coming over after a date so its not like this is a date then.

"if your date goes well i wont hold my breath"
"it's the second date which equals the opportunity to make it clear that nothing's going to happen."

but then we are just two people with paths converging the opposite way, with clear goals on different ends of the spectrum. i'm not excited when she's around and she calls ______ all the time and we talk about their psuedo-relationship. this is good, hanging out with someone cool and that is all it is.

but why am i shaving?